My Dis-ease

[kokopelle]

My dis-ease manifests when I get home. Today I watched TV while eating dinner and then played Alliance for what must have been several hours. I have lots of good and creative things to do at the house. Do I do them? No... I instead put my brain in neutral and frittle the time away. I think it is has to do with depression and a sadness about my house.

Sigh... my dis-ease.

Comments

[valkyriur.livejournal.com]

Me too. :/

[odyssey-spirit.livejournal.com]

Maybe that's just a counterproductive way of meeting some real needs that haven't been fully acknowledged? Like, when I feel myself overeating and decide to change it, I usually realize I'm just under-hydrated. When I indulge in listening to music for "too long" it's usually to drown out some unprocessed emotions or unfinished trains of thought. Etc...

[greensh.livejournal.com]

You are correct. It is probably an avoidence thing. The question is if I can blame 'depression' or a more 'sane' choice to avoid doing other things. Oh well, recognition of the issue is a start to dealing with it. Of course it could be that I just think think think all day and choose to unwind. hmmm...