A Horrible Dream

[kokopelle]

This morning I had a series of horrible dreams. An engineering contract to build home security devices out of common household devices turned into a dream that made the movie Deliverance look tame. Cannibalism, torture and desperate chases made this dream the most close to nightmares as I come. I finally escaped from the abuse and made my way to my parents house. There my mother (I think) was entertaining a guest who had a catering business offer. I knew the person was from "the bad place" and tried to warn my mom. Then two guys from the bad place appeared at the front door. They were principal players in the torture sessions. I yelled (at the top of my lungs) for them to leave. They came to the back door and I did the same. It was very emotional. I still was not completely believed about the bad place and the roles of the people in what I had experienced.

Talking about it somehow transported us there. Everything seemed OK. There was no torture or abuse. I stated that I had experienced different. I found a game guide that had a walk-through to the place (ok... this is where the dream-like quality comes in). The game guide had elements of the terror I experienced, but it was in measured doses and easily overcome by the participant. I said that the staged meetings happened all at once for me, and the outcomes where much more horrific than what the book described.

My friends wandered off to explore more. Suddenly there were yells and screams. A search of the rooms showed nothing, but something was going on. In a main "alter" room some of my affected friends appeared. It was apparent that they were under control of an evil entity. My possessed friends wanted to convert us as well. I started some energy work that transformed the evil energy in the room into a sphere that I envisioned between my hands. The transformation was not feeling complete, but I had done all I could, so I bound the energies in the sphere. The collected energy became a glass sphere. The creation of the sphere greatly weekend my possessed friends, but there was still an element of evil dwelling within them. I had to stand over each one separately and guide the remaining evil into the sphere. The sphere gave me measure of command over my possessed friends. I could command them to come out into the open even while they attempted to hide. I remember that my friends had degrees of power and innocence. For some reason I started with the "weakest" and moved up to the strongest, when my logic was telling me that I should do it the other way if I had a measured reserve of strength.

This was a REALLY unfun dream sequence. I strongly hope that I have very few like this. The torture scenes were very vivid, I was unable to escape, and became very emotional when the now innocent looking culprits appeared later in the dream. Gads.

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Comments

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

No bad dreams but I keep seeing demon like faces when I'm falling asleep and waking up -- only in that twilight space for me. They don't feel like demons so I'm thinking "bad faeries" There's certainly been something with teeth out on the ether. It's amazing how many energy workers are laying low and keep very quiet. Then the folks who need help REALLY need help. I got a call a few weeks ago from someone who usually steps in on the hard stuff for everyone else. Atypically, he was asking for help for himself. I inadvertently ended up Standing in the gap for him, not work that's really appropriate for me -- more of a men's work sort of thing, but I was there. So . . .

[greensh.livejournal.com]

I suppose I am guilty as charged when it comes to "energy workers who are laying low". I do seem to know X amount of stuff, really a scary amount by my estimation compared to the 'norm' in this physical geographical area, but there does not seem to be avenues to share/express the knowledge/abilities. Course, I am in a hermit mode right now, so it is not like I am actively looking... With that said, is there anything I can do to help you and your clients?

The dream I described did give me insight into how I conduct my life. I plan to write about this soon.

I'm curious, do your demon faces try to communicate with you, or are they just hanging out?

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

Lots of things communicate with me but, no these demon faces weren't communicating with me at all, not even making faces and gestures, which that sort of thing often does if you notice it.

The faces were more like just seeing something in the environment. Often when I see things like that it's 3D and full color, smell, and sound but what I saw was just really minimally visual -- like in the dark where all colors fade. My thought was that as I was falling asleep or waking up that I was just sliding through levels of awareness and seeing stuff that's around.

Thanks for the offer of help. I have been thinking for the last several months that I have been in error by continuing to do work myself that isn't appropriate. Specifically, there's "mens work" that I really think needs to be done by men. When I have thought about how to make some shifts, you were one of the people I thought of asking. There are two specific men that I think might benefit from a small team of male mentors. I'll get back with you if it seems they're willing at any level and see how you feel. Interestingly both have a strong wolf component and you have some sort of obvious strong wolf guardian stuff.

[greensh.livejournal.com]

My spirit helper (whatever name is given to it) takes the form of a wolf, and this was the case prior to my meeting Wulfwalker. He is a joy to work with. I'm willing to help. Let me know when the time seems right to you. My more private e-mail is greensh(at)lycos.com.

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

Well, the second wolf-guy actually made an appointment and I'm talking with him at 10 CST this morning. I may tap your space for extra context and balance since you're willing.

Just to clarify for integrity reasons, this isn't a paying client but someone referred to me through my network of healers. Sometimes people are key to larger things and as a group we try to look out for those folks and give them a hand to something more stable. It all comes back around, so it's good to be careful what we toss into the swirl.

[greensh.livejournal.com]

That's 11:00 my time... works for me.

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

THANKS. That was harder than I expected but I kept better awareness of my own limits. Interesting.

Not Guilty

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

I really don't think it's a "guilty as charged" thing. There's something really wise right now about disengagement and intense discernment where we do engage.

Lots of reasons for that but one of the biggies is that the cultural changes have social geometries acting out in just bad habits that reinforce patterns of alliance, exclusion, and resource flow. It's important NOT to fall into those invitations without great awareness and specific practice since anything that works out of that is a false positive and can't be sustainable.

Re: Not Guilty

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

. . .they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Re: Not Guilty

[greensh.livejournal.com]

Agreed...

There is a paradox of plenty in the energy working environment. Many people have learned a little. There is a place to sit back and watch if people can help themselves. There is a place for action, but abrupt action is performed when there is an abrupt need (analogy would be a broken leg needing a splint). When people (should) know enough to make splints themselves, there is less of an urgency, IMHO right so, to intercede. Does this make sense?

Re: Not Guilty

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

It does make sense.

What I'm seeing at the moment is something harder for my discernment . . . it's like a certain level of bad things happening to people right now, things that could be adjusted or eased, will actually put most people in a better circumstance for other, more difficult things coming over the horizon.

There are a few people, generally those who don't have skill or habits of acquiring or accepting help, who can be very slightly shifted to a more supportive and sustainable infrastructure and who then, once they settle in, will be key to all sorts of other benefits for lots of people.

Alas, I have no confidence in my discernment. Fortunately, I DO have confidence in the efficacy of the cosmic two-by-four and both motivation and practice to respond instead to cosmic nerf herding.