Poem - If I Bought a Gun

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The poem “If I Bought a Gun” is about the intersection of depression and suicide. It contemplates the obstacles we place in the way of the ultimate self-harm.


If I Bought a Gun

If I bought a gun
would it give me pause?
effort to find
cold metal in my grasp
meant to test
depression's reticence

how much labor
will turn me from a path?
one way journey
none wish me to travel
meant end it all
when life has lost its bloom

Would the end by slug
or truck be the same?
the later much quicker
than former said
a blissful nothing
to goodbye the day

is this path I plot
set by the devil?
corruption made
when the soul is weakest
permanent fix
for passing sad

can this be separation
from true love?
world turned off
when it should be on
answer found in the
dark of the other side

if I bought a gun
would it give me pause?
so much to do so
I can do nothing else
test the waters
that have no return.

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