Crazy or Selfish

[kokopelle]

Nowadays I am feeling a little crazy. Some aspects of it are that I am just really pissed at some aspects of the world. I've asked my lovely mate how a person knows they are crazy. She's quite kind to me, telling me that I'm not crazy. Maybe I'm not. Maybe I am just really selfish and really angry. Hmmmm... I guess this is a form of madness. The difference between this and a 'chemical' insanity is that there is an element of choice in the selfishness. This is especially true (IMO) when a person is aware of the element of selfishness.

The big question is how to 'achieve' a measure of sanity when under the spell of selfishness. How does a person recover from anger?

I'm striving to open my heart. My current experience is not helping. Or is it? Is this one of those really fun lessons of life? I am seeing glimpses of the light at the end of the tunnel. I hope this is a real light and I have the strength to continue on.

Comments

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

Don't know who said it first, but I always like:

Real insanity is doing what you've always done and expecting the outcome to be different.

Change is hard. Growing while remaining aware alert and reasonably responsible is the work of an heroic warrior of the spirit.

This book has a stupid title, but great content. Also available in audio. http://www.amazon.com/Anger-Forgiveness-Practical-Achieving-Reconciliation/dp/0345379829

[chimerae.livejournal.com]

Looking for a quote linked to this, I found the most amazing piece. I so needed this, and wonder if it will serve you:

http://www.betweenthemists.org/truthandsovereignty.html